Wednesday, March 21, 2012

I am ready for “I do”, do I? (A Note from a Post Feminist, Control Freak Woman)



When you say this two short words, it is not as easy as you said “I love you” when you had crush on someone. It is shorter than “I love you” yet it is more breathtaking and need a lot of courage to say that. I even had to be forced to say that. *grin

A collection of a beautiful words end up with this two words. The bull shit promise wrapped by a commitment shortly mentioned “I do”… and before GOD you must say it. So what is the consequence after you said it? That you are responsible to the community who witness it that you will, tooth and nail, work on your marriage life. Do we have to do that? Traditionally yes you should.

Once I asked my mom, “Should I spend my life with the same man for the rest of my life? What if I get bored of him?” She is glaring and said, “You are catholic, you never get divorced!” Hey! Did I mention about getting divorced? What I am afraid of is I am trapped in a daily routine. I avoid the same circle (of life, activities, even a man!) Boredom is one of the issues.

Another issue is will you be still attractive when you are “preoccupied” with your love one? You are facing him, serve him (with the children!), share the bath room, and sleep in one bed with the same guy every day. Yes, doctor love diagnoses that you are in the most secure wifehood and you forget the details that you used to run when you are single: lady in style. Well, you were advertised yourself!  Look at you now, wearing scrunchy, smell of the kitchen, broken nails….hahahahaha sorry, the picture is so terrible! Generally your life transforms to the latest flat TV in your house! You are independent free woman who is now in domestication. 

I have a confession to make, sometimes I tease another man with what I wear, or words that I send through text messages just to confirm that I am still attractive. Who are those guys? Oh, they are just guys who appear out of the blue, and I used to call them my handsome snacks, some clients or my ex boyfriends. Crazy, huh? Do you still count this as a cheating? Pleased to judge me, ladies! I am a sexual libertine, yes you may say. Traditionally I break the rule. But honestly, how much of you women, do the same action as I do? Maybe I am only the one who dare and stands up for her thought. I don’t mean seriously attached and emotionally involved with those guys. They are just my afternoon snacks. Sorry guys, you should have been aware that I am taken. And how I can be truthful to my significant other? That’s my homework: speak up now or forever silent. *grin

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